Joining The NYSC

It is difficult to describe how I feel about being American and being in the USA. But I will try to do so below. (BTW, the grammar errors are part of the sentiment):

for me, it is often extremely uncomfortable being in the USA. i feel trapped like there is no way out. and being american is painful often--i mean, don't get me wrong, ThereAreAFewPerks, but mostly, it is: PROFANE, culturally corrosive, psychologically frightening, emotionally draining, and worst of all, it is spiritually unsettling. i have felt this way my entire life.